Today I am reflecting on the past month, and trying to find out what went wrong. What changed in my life that made it so difficult to get up off my butt and make it to the gym at nights, or actually do my workouts once I get there??? I'm at a loss. Nothing has really changed - with the exception of money getting tighter (still trying to figure out WHY), and starting up my Scentsy business again. Nothing is taking up more time in my day, I still do what I normally did during the day - just instead of FB'ing, and being on my SP webpage all day, I am promoting Scentsy. So, why all of a sudden do I have NO energy, no drive to go to the gym, and NO drive to do what I am supposed to when I do finally get there?! I don't understand. I have gone back through WHY I started this journey, and it usually gives me that much needed boost to go to the gym, but I loose something on the way.
I'm still seeing a loss, which is GREAT - I'm now down to 167.2**** CORRECTION - 166.4 (I just went to weigh again - since I hadn't done it in 4 days), so I am down a total of 4 pounds from my "starting" weight, and 9 pounds from my "after starting weight gain", which is still pretty awesome for a little less than 2 months.
You would think that seeing a loss on the scale would be motivation to KEEP going to the gym, right?! WRONG!! I'm going to go on a psycho-analysis talk now, so please bear with me....this is how I figure out things in my life (I'm that crazy lady that could have an entire conversation with herself)!! HAHA!
I think subconsciously I'm seeing that loss, and thinking that I can slack off. Now that I am seeing a loss without as much work as I was doing before, kind of solidifies that fact. I KNOW that I shouldn't slack off, and that if I do that now, that eventually I am going to stop workout out and eating healthier, and end up right back where I started or worse! So WHY am I doing what I KNOW I shouldn't do?! I think that is what's so frustrating!! I have the knowledge, and to a certain extent I still have the motivation - so what's going on!?
I have my 5K fun run this weekend, and maybe this will help me get back on the wagon. It's not a "real" 5K as my hubby likes to point out, but it's still a 5K, and I'm going to do my best, regardless of the obstacles!
So far this week, I went to the gym on Tuesday, skipped yesterday since I was exhausted from being on the road all day (I made a day trip to Andrews, so I was in the car most of the day). I PLAN on going this evening after dinner and my cousin picks up her kiddos that I am baby sitting today. I'm hoping the kids don't wear me out today, and that I have the energy to do what I say I am going to do. I definitely feel like right now, I am all talk and no action - and I HATE THAT!!! So, I am going to try to find that balance. I feel like I did my best when I blogged consistently, and talked with others on my weight loss page. I have stopped doing that about the time I started slacking from the gym. I am going to try to set myself a schedule that says...XX amount of time for Scentsy, XX amount of time for blogging, XX amount of time for SP, and XXXXXX amount of time for kids and house work. Maybe if I set limits for myself, and keep them, I will then get balance back, and be more consistent in my workouts....it's worth a shot, right?! :)
We are on the same page! Last week I got up 3 mornings in a row to exercise and I was so proud of myself. I even took a few walks in the evenings and I too saw about a 3 pound loss. But ever since Saturday I have been eating like crap...we have eaten out almost everyday and I haven't exercised once. Its so difficult to find that balance with everything. I'm just way too tired after work and soccer that I sit on my lazy butt and put everything off. I feel like I'm all talk lol so if you figure out how to juggle everything, let me in on the secret!!
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