I've had so many people come up to me, whether on here, Facebook, my Sparkpeople website, or my
own family, and say "you're doing great! I don't know how you keep it up,
I would have probably quit already."
My standard response has been this: "I have tried many, many times to lose the weight, and keep it off for good, but I would either reach and goal, and revert back - or I would get discouraged and quit. This time, something just clicked, and I am going to make this change, and it's going to be permanent. If it's something that you really, I mean - REALLY, want to do you will do it not matter what obstacles or trials you go through."
Usually, that elicits a "Wow, girl, that's awesome! I'm glad you've found something to keep you motivated, and I can't wait to see the final results!"
However, I was recently asked this question instead - and it stopped me in my tracks: "What clicked? What happened in your life that it just clicked to make this change."
I really had to stop and think about it. Why did I decide to do this, and to be so serious about it. What has been the driving force behind working out 2 hours a night and trying to eat better? Why am I trying to become a better ME!?
I sat down, and thought about it, and the biggest one had to be my daughter, Kyleah. She's almost 5, and she has seen mommy at her highest, and at her lowest, both weight wise and emotional wise. She's seen me look at myself in the mirror and comment how fat I am, or I wish I could just loose a few pounds. Recently, she's started to mimic me. Do you know how HARD that is to see your little girl, pinching her (flat as a board) stomach, and saying she's fat. I tell her "No baby, you're not fat at all, don't say that." and she grabs her tummy and says "look at this mommy, I'm fat I just need to loose some weight!" or she shakes her thigh and says "see that mommy, it jiggles - that's fat." It breaks my heart because she is doing this because of ME, because I was so hard on myself - in front of her. I know I should NEVER do that, but I really didn't realize I was doing that in front of her at all until she started copying me. No little girl should grow up thinking they are fat, or worrying about a little leg jiggle. Right now, I am setting my daughter up for health issues, and possible eating disorders. I couldn't take it. I realized that if I wasn't happy with myself, and setting a good example for my daughter NOW, then we were going to have some real issues when she got older.
That's definitely NOT the only thing that cause me to "click" but it's really a BIG part of it. I'm doing this so I can set a good example for my little girl about healthy eating, exercising and living. I figure if I start now, then I can maybe undo a lot of the damage I have already caused by my own negative body image.
So, I ask you this - have you had that "click"? If so, why?
My standard response has been this: "I have tried many, many times to lose the weight, and keep it off for good, but I would either reach and goal, and revert back - or I would get discouraged and quit. This time, something just clicked, and I am going to make this change, and it's going to be permanent. If it's something that you really, I mean - REALLY, want to do you will do it not matter what obstacles or trials you go through."
Usually, that elicits a "Wow, girl, that's awesome! I'm glad you've found something to keep you motivated, and I can't wait to see the final results!"
However, I was recently asked this question instead - and it stopped me in my tracks: "What clicked? What happened in your life that it just clicked to make this change."
I really had to stop and think about it. Why did I decide to do this, and to be so serious about it. What has been the driving force behind working out 2 hours a night and trying to eat better? Why am I trying to become a better ME!?
I sat down, and thought about it, and the biggest one had to be my daughter, Kyleah. She's almost 5, and she has seen mommy at her highest, and at her lowest, both weight wise and emotional wise. She's seen me look at myself in the mirror and comment how fat I am, or I wish I could just loose a few pounds. Recently, she's started to mimic me. Do you know how HARD that is to see your little girl, pinching her (flat as a board) stomach, and saying she's fat. I tell her "No baby, you're not fat at all, don't say that." and she grabs her tummy and says "look at this mommy, I'm fat I just need to loose some weight!" or she shakes her thigh and says "see that mommy, it jiggles - that's fat." It breaks my heart because she is doing this because of ME, because I was so hard on myself - in front of her. I know I should NEVER do that, but I really didn't realize I was doing that in front of her at all until she started copying me. No little girl should grow up thinking they are fat, or worrying about a little leg jiggle. Right now, I am setting my daughter up for health issues, and possible eating disorders. I couldn't take it. I realized that if I wasn't happy with myself, and setting a good example for my daughter NOW, then we were going to have some real issues when she got older.
That's definitely NOT the only thing that cause me to "click" but it's really a BIG part of it. I'm doing this so I can set a good example for my little girl about healthy eating, exercising and living. I figure if I start now, then I can maybe undo a lot of the damage I have already caused by my own negative body image.
So, I ask you this - have you had that "click"? If so, why?
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