It's time to Re-Evaluate!!!

Well, I didn't make it to the gym this weekend, like I had EVERY intention of doing. I just literally had too much stuff happening and couldn't make it!! Sunday, I seriously would have fallen asleep on the treadmill IF I would have had a babysitter for my kids when I got home from Andrews (late). Saturday we went to bed early so we could get up early and go to Andrews. Friday, I was just lazy - I'll admit that. We went to a BBQ with some AMAZING people, and then I stayed up and watched TV - instead of going to the gym.

Tonight the PLAN is to get back into my 5K training. I will be starting week 3 this week, even though I skipped week 2 (I actually skipped week 2 during the actual week 2, because I am a genius and can't read). I will also be doing weights on my non-running days. So, I will be back to my "every day of the week except Sunday" gym routine.

I get to go buy new running shoes today!!!  My hubby gave me the green light (finally) after saying "no. you already have shoes" for like a MONTH now!! Normally, I would just go buy them myself - but since I don't work, and he works so hard to provide for us, I can't justify spending THAT much money on myself, without making sure it's okay - or making sure he doesn't need anything first.

I'll definitely update later with my new shoes, when I get them! Fingers Crossed they have them in stock!!! Here's the stock pic, but I'll have my pic later! I may change my mind once I try them on...

On the re-evaluation side of things, I am beginning to realize that when I am NOT working out regularly, I don't eat like I should. However, since I have started my journey, I have learned better about portion control, and how to eat better when I'm not the one cooking!! When we DO go out to eat or are at a BBQ, I ask myself, "what healthIER alternatives are there that I can get, but still feel satisfied?!" Honestly, there aren't a LOT, and I am still learning the art of being able to tell if I am still hungry, or just used to over eating!!

I am the person that would eat, and eat and EAT, until I was so full I felt like I was going to throw up, or I was just so miserable, I didn't want to get out of my seat! That's what I thought it meant to not be hungry, to be stuffed, instead of satisfied!! There is a difference, and I am still trying to learn, but I'm definitely more aware of things now than a few months ago. There are days when I eat, and I thought I ate enough, but 30 minutes later I am hungry again!!  Then there are days where I eat until I start getting full, and I'm good. I don't have to eat again until my next meal. But, I still have those days where it's like I loose myself "in food" and I just can't stop! I eat until I feel sick, and then I eat a little more - because it just tastes soooo good!

The other day, we ate at BK (not really a healthy choice really, but it was quick) and I remembered an article I had read that said, by getting a Whopper Jr. (no cheese), instead of a Whopper, it will save you close to 300 calories versus the FULL size one, and then not to upsize your fries - this will save you an additional 100 calories. I did this, and after I ate my burger, and my fries, I still felt hungry (or what my mind is telling me means I'm hungry). I wasn't starving, but I wasn't full. I could have still eaten, but I resisted. I told myself that if I gave it 30 minutes and I was still hungry then I could try something else, but maybe it's just that delay from my stomach telling me I'm full, to my brain realizing I'm full. Eventually I didn't feel hungry anymore, and I thought MAYBE I got it right, finally, BUT later on that night I was soooo hungry I grabbed a bag of chips, some Julios, sliced up some Colby Jack Cheese (to dip in my salsa - duh!) and pigged out! :( There has to be an easier way...I know it! I just have to find it!!! :) That's definitely my biggest struggle right now. I can do the work at the gym, I can talk all day long about how motivated I am, but in reality FOOD IS MY ENEMY!!! It's also one of my great loves!! :-/

So those are my struggles right now....FOOD! I will get past it all, and I will loose this weight!! I did revamp my goals, and they are to loose 5 pounds a month!!! This will get me down to 150-145 by Christmas!! I CAN DO IT!!! I set them that way, so I am not reaching those goals in the first week and thinking I can slack off the rest of the month, and so they aren't so unattainable that I loose focus, and my determination!

 EDIT: Obviously I did NOT proof read before I posted, and it's full of jumbled words, mis-spelled words, and just a whole lotta confusion! I wrote the darn thing, and I am confused! HAHA!! Any-who, I've corrected a few things, added a little more (above) and if you keep scrolling - here are the shoes I actually got today!!

Cute, huh? I love them, and they fit GREAT!! They didn't have the ones above...apparently THAT store doesn't keep them in stock (even though the website says they do) because they don't sell a lot of PUMA's. I ended up getting these at Academy, for $10 more. I can't WAIT to try them out tonight!! May even wear them around the house this afternoon while I'm cleaning...ya know, just to break them in!! :)